Friday, June 09, 2006

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MOVED.


http://sparxflew.livejournal.com


actually moved for quite a long time.
just lazy want to tell u all..



hahahahah.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

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You are a beautiful fracture in my perennial pursuit of self discovery. You are the plastic dove perched on the grey concrete gargoyle. You are the lovely scar on my tainted arms. You are the rusty ring worn loosely around my fourth finger.

You are
You are
Everything and nothing at all.

You are both genders and you possess no anatomy. You are the suicidal ragdoll jumping off my Lego castle. You are the sweet embrace that i long for in the battle field. You are just memories i lock away in a wooden crate.
Your dirge has no words. Your theories have no meaning. But my ears welcome such ecstasy pouring from those tobacco stained lips of yours.

You are everything and nothing to me.
And i will never forget you.

The 2 D's in my life. Disaster and Depression.
Disaster is female clad in brown striped shirts.
Depression is male with black ankle socks and checkered boxers.
I am a liar and a dreamer and a thinker and a romantic cynic.

Don't believe a word i say.
i lovehate you.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

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an immense void i tried to fill up.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

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why u gotta go screw me up like this.
like a tangled web of emotions.
i feel like wet noodle.
u know pasta? when its all soggy and in a mess jumbled up and shit.
thats how i feel.
fuck u _____f.
i effing would love to hate you now.
instead all im hating is that i love you.

fucking leave,
i have my own someone now.
i love my someone.
so very, very much.


sindhu said "you can't help who you fall in love with. "
i think maybe u can.. but its true. once u've fallen, you've fallen.
you can't change it unless you fall out of it.
but u've already fallen.
so it happened.
you cant stop what already has happened.


FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU.
GO AWAY.
STOP ME FROM FUCKING MISSING YOU.

fuck im such a fucktard.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

* *_like woah.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

* *_to the one that got away.

"Letters To You"
Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and i'm all alone
Get me through this one

Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that
I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you I miss you so

I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But i'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart

Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]

No more looking i've found home

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so [x4]

I'm gone away
I'm gone away

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

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changes.
i accept them with open arms.
thats what i'd like to think.
maybe i dont like changes that come without a warning.
yes, i can easily adapt myself in any situation that im put in. that i know.
but i dont think i like those that dont adhere to giving warnings.
why did you change?
sayang, mengapa kau berubah
haha, how jiwang.

i've changed. i know i have.
i was a much better person in secondary school.
but there was alot of pretentious bullshit.
maybe ive grown a bit more streetsmart.
experience helps in growth.
have i grown?
maybe just in weight.
blehkxxxxxx.